I am suddenly craving sushi and onigiri.

I want fish, veggies, seaweed, and most importantly rice, ASAP!

It’s like anxiety crawls out of the depths of my being.

It creeps up my tongue and forces itself out of my mouth.

I try to keep it back, so it migrates to my mind. It’s hardest to get it out of there.

So I let it slither out between my lips sometimes.

Sometimes I feel better. Sometimes I regret it.

I wonder how one gets followers? People reblog my music posts and like the text posts. What am I doing wrong? Why don’t they stay and see what else I have to offer?  

Spent all day with my James!

I wore sweat pants even though my mom said “Oh, you’re wearing that?” And had no makeup on to boot.

I ate a lot even though my dad said “Oh, you’re eating that?” 

We watched zombie movies and played video games. 

I love him so very much! :) 

I really feel like a teenager. It feels so good to finally feel like I belong. I’ve become everything I’ve always wanted to be.

Is it sad that I’m near tears because being social is a possibility for me?

I think the most frightening things are the ones we can’t see. The invisible monster. The sudden cold air. There is no sight that can top the creepy crawlies that form in our minds. Even some beautiful things are the most dangerous, as they appear harmless.

I royally fucked up last night. Went Super Saiyan anxiety mode at an amusement park.

I always feel like I’m wasting time. That time is running out. That I’m dying faster than everyone else.

My boyfriend had to take care of me along with my parents. It was embarrassing. Oh well. I always get this way before school because it takes up a lot of time in my short life. It frightens me. 

Right now it is softly raining outside. It starts and then stops again.

The Earth is helping me become calm again from this manic anxious spell.

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I don’t care how nerdy this sounds, but I have really awesome xbox friends.

Chad, Alex, and Dave are my Modern Warfare 2 bros. They make me laugh so hard! Also they find me witty. Even if I don’t go out and have plans with people, I always can sign in and still have a fun time. :)