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I’m in awe that I lasted the week. But that’s the thing, isn’t it? You keep on lasting, keep on just making it, and suddenly the year has past. You just keep on living, until one day, you don’t.
posted 2 months ago · 2 notes

  #here   #depression   #life   #thoughts   #mind   #sad   #quotes

It is so easy for me to find beauty in the people around me. People in class, on campus, in stores and stairways.

Recently though, beauty seems to be everywhere but myself.

posted 2 months ago · 0 notes

  #here   #beauty   #life

I would kiss Death,
if only for a moment.

posted 2 months ago · 1 note

  #poem   #poetry   #minimalist   #death   #life   #feelings   #emotions   #modernist

I am;
so I feel,
so I create,
so I breathe.

posted 3 months ago · 1 note

  #here   #poem   #poetry   #short   #stanza   #life   #feelings   #feel   #emotion

Do You Even Read My Poetry?

Do you still love me?
Not then
but now?
Do you understand me?
As I learn
to cope?
Do you still blame me?
Am I still a rotten friend?
Am I still a sullen slut?

Because I’m not sure
if your callous words
will ever leave me.
Because I will always
try to make up
for the lost time
of all my shortcomings.

posted 3 months ago · 0 notes

  #poem   #poetry   #abuse   #cruel   #love   #hate   #life

Most days I really and truly love myself. I can accept my entire life as the human experience in which bad and good things are to happen, and the fact that I exist is a testament to the grandeur of the universe. I weep at the glory of what has been bestowed unto me from the stars.

Other days I am self centered and, in being so, despise myself and reek of self loathing. I am short sighted and selfish. Today has turned into one of those days, but I won’t let it be that way for long..

posted 3 months ago · 0 notes

  #here   #life

I was never straight
just pretending to be.
I was never in love
just pretending to be.
It was abuse
and all it will ever be.

I’ve gotten stronger
than you’ll ever be.
I’ve gone farther
than you’ll ever go.
I’m glad I ripped out your heart
and made you cry
a fraction of my rage and damage.

I will live life
and I will go far
and I will conquer
just to know
that you
won’t,
just to love
another, others,
just to love
myself more,
just to love
each new day
away from you
with people
who don’t hurt me
who won’t hurt me
because I am
lovable,
and
capable
of anything I damn well please.

posted 3 months ago · 3 notes

  #poem   #poetry   #abuse   #relationship   #ex   #drunk   #write   #hurt   #recover   #strength   #ialac   #life   #lesbian   #gay

Can I
get a grip
on reality?

Of course not.

But I can
grip the windowpane
and thrust myself
past the plastic siding
into the yard next door.

posted 3 months ago · 0 notes

  #here   #poem   #poetry   #written   #sad   #depressed   #reality   #life

Something
feels off.
Something
is wrong.

There’s not enough
butane in this world
to burn this away.
There’s not enough
acid in this world
to destroy it.

There’s not enough
time to heal me
or love to let be.

I’m stuck
with this sensation
that something is wrong,
that something is off.

posted 3 months ago · 2 notes

  #here   #poetry   #poem   #butane   #harm   #heal   #life

Why can’t I just be a calico kitten or a fox kit or a wolf pup for the rest of my days?

posted 3 months ago · 1 note

  #here   #life   #animals   #fox   #cat

can’t get to sleep without aid anymore… blessed be NyQuil

but so anxious over petty things and not so petty things

mixed feelings about Australia though I want to do a year at Murdoch

how did my future become… promising?

posted 4 months ago · 2 notes

  #here   #written   #anxiety   #life   #college   #purpose

the way I feel about my life right now is that it’s a timed game and my character is frozen, yet the timer keeps ticking down and I am frustrated and randomly hit buttons but nothing happens

posted 4 months ago · 2 notes

  #here   #tired   #night thoughts   #life   #game   #lol

Today my sociology professor asked us what we would do for a living if money was no option.

In my head I was screaming “Write. I would write from sun up until sun down. I would inspire and be inspired.”

I rarely get the courage to write though.

How sad.

posted 5 months ago · 1 note

  #here   #write   #writing   #life   #college

It amazes me that some people can go through an entire day without wanting it all to be over or forget to eat out of constant nausea. They get out of bed without a second thought. They don’t feel a growing terror in public spaces. It is awe inspiring.

posted 5 months ago · 3 notes

  #here   #fear   #anxiety   #depression   #life   #amazing

Not anymore.

Not anymore.

(Source: ohaymrdth)

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  #shy   #life   #text