I don’t care how nerdy this sounds, but I have really awesome xbox friends.
Chad, Alex, and Dave are my Modern Warfare 2 bros. They make me laugh so hard! Also they find me witty. Even if I don’t go out and have plans with people, I always can sign in and still have a fun time. :)
Every summer I change. Last summer I learned how to be happy with appearance and to embrace myself. The summer before that I decided not to kill myself and that life is worth living. This summer I’m learning how to be more social and confident.
I’ve set up shop in Lancaster, PA with some family while my parents are at home. I will be here for two days. Tomorrow we go to the market and go to thrift/consignment shops. Also my cousin is giving me a crash course in sewing.
Then I’m possibly headed to Lebanon, PA for more family fun times.
When will I make it back home? Missing my boyfriend, dog, and friends.
I have everyday of my life between May 2009-August 2011 archived in five journals.
I also have a notebook of nightly messages between my mother and I from June 2004-August 2008.
Looking back on it I was inspired by Harriet the Spy. However, I only started living after I stopped writing. I’m glad that I did write though, because I can see how much I’ve changed and grown up.
No longer do I live in a fantasy super weeaboo/otaku world where I secretly can’t stand my friends and haven’t the foggiest idea of who I am. I’m no longer depressed over unfortunate events and completely obsessed with things that don’t matter. Presently I’m happy and enlightened. I’m enjoying life and living life more fervently than I ever have before.