It’s currently 12:02 am on Saturday morning and yesterday was a horrible day.
I have nightmares every night. It doesn’t matter what I eat or drink before bed or do that day. It’s just every night… When I woke up, I didn’t feel well. I was nauseous which made it hard to eat. My computer’s screen isn’t working right, so I’m forced to use my mother’s computer. It just frustrates me so horribly. When my electronics don’t work properly, I don’t work properly.
This whole day, my mind was in a fog. I was on the brink of panic mode because I wasn’t alert enough. I want to go somewhere and whimper. I have the feeling of overwhelming fright and fear. My heart has been racing at random points throughout the day and my chest was all-over heavy. I would like to find out more about the anxiety I experience from a medical view, but my mother doesn’t want me to get medicated…
I am afraid to go to sleep. I want to snap out of this bad mood. I think Saturday will be another personal day…
Well today is George Bailey Day, as it was dubbed by my brother’s in laws.
It got this name from the main character in ‘It’s a Wonderful Life’. At six we drive to the town one over and celebrate. There we exchange ridiculous gifts that don’t make sense. Last year we got half a coconut shell and a piece of wood with fake apples nailed to it. This year we made a Santa sled out of a turkey carcass and have a miniature Santa holding the reigns. It’s so macabre and I love it. Anyways, we drink Baileys Irish Cream and Boilo. We eat baklava and wear funny hats. There’s a zebra figurine placed ceremoniously on the table. It’s a good time.
This morning however, is dedicated to my Dziadzia (grandfather in Polish) and his second wife Ann (who hates our entire family). I haven’t seen him in roughly 3-5? years. It doesn’t bother me at all. My Uncle Joe, Aunt Missy, cousin Emily and Jackie are coming as well. (I like them very much.) Oh yes and my grandparent’s crazy/creepy driver Lou and Ann’s nun daughter Pam are also attending this gathering.
Have a nice day my tumblrinas and tumblrinos. Wish me luck, yea?
My Christmas was very nice! I hope yours was as well. I got clothes and candy, as per usual. I woke up at 7:18 am and haven’t been alone until now (roughly 10 pm). I love my family, I enjoy Christmas but that’s a tad too much. I really just want to play xbox in a room by myself and have my boyfriend on the opposite end. But that won’t be happening.
Anyways. I ate a lot of good foods and tons of sweets. My aunt and cousins made a fuss over that I’m dating. I sipped at an alcoholic beverage. Apricot brandy doesn’t agree with my taste buds, so that was over almost as quickly as it started.
All in all, today was a productive day. I’m going to go play with my brother’s dog, as he and his fiance are staying the night. Goodnight tumblr; savor the dying embers of this holiday.